merry christmas

sigh...

a few days of rest....
today is the tenth day

feel sucks
everyday pc game only

my undang haven't finish reading... next wednesday is the day of test already

ciaoz...

above is a christmas present by my aunt...... blur like me @@

and this one... hmm, i saw it in watson... when i say i want it my bro say me DAO GEI...zzz

my christmas hope...

I WANT TO STOP PLAYING ONLINE GAME

100th post

oh my god.
i finished my Sila Pergi Main finally
memang hampir maut in this exam ==
watever
end liao jiu suan

now... i need a long rest

by the way,
today half cleaned my room,
the papers are too many,
couldn't believer i wrote so many things in these two years...
another thing that shock me is first aid notes and books... damn many, someone fast fast take it away

arh, i need a few days to recover back my energy

i have so many things want to write... but give me sometimes ya,
credits given to all that cheer up my life in secondary school

and ya,
MERRY CHRISTMAS =)

this is just the starting point

hah,
tomorrow will be the real spm,
actually i am wondering what is happening to me...
so many friends start to have insomnia including my mad cousin,
Rin dream of haven't revising BM
lol.

the 99th post before SPM
haha,
the 100th post will be on 15th of December,
just wait me...

my family planning for holiday trip after SPM...
no idea what am i going to miss after SPM >.<

无奈

hmm, last post is before trial...
now trial end d...
many things happened in this few weeks time...

人来人往，
来也匆匆，
去也匆匆。
身边最近常听见xx去世什么的。
有的还未退休，
有的退休没几年。

生命该结束的时候，
没有人应该阻止。
规划生命，
是我见过最好笑的东西，
谁敢担保你能活几久?
20？ 30？ 还是40？
想要做的，
今天就完成它，
不然临走遗憾多多。

就此结题，免得写得太黑暗。

————————————————————————————————

这几天有朋友在facebook写感激认识我们什么的，
希望友谊长久。

其实
我想说
我很开心认识你们，
中一时，我还以为我不会有很熟的朋友，
从认识，到成为朋友，好朋友，
都是在我不察觉中进行。

我只能用文字告诉你们几个38的说：
我希望我们友谊长久。

看开/看不开

有好多东西都不是你我可以控制的...生老病死，
悲欢离合...

相反，
可以掌握的，
在很多时候，我们都不会珍惜。
别人都在鼓励你，帮助你，提拔你，
你成不成材，就只是看你自己要不要而已。

最近好喜欢摩菲定理
凡是可能出错的事均会出错 Anything that can go wrong will go wrong...
第一次听的时候，
我真的不明白...
现在，我相信了。
的确，能错的东西，它都会错给你看。 
生命无 take two,
请珍惜生命。

source from http://www.wretch.cc/blog/lfw93

REOPEN OF WRETCH

okay
this is my old blog
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/lfw93
reopening from now on...
any post update will be post on both blog...
some private post will only be in wretch
so close friend pls ask from me the password for the post
thanks

It Ends Tonight

finally,
BSMM AGM is on today

at last i retire,
as a senior and advisor,
which means in future no more advise from me,
now is your world.

no senior come back to have a look,
all have things to busy with.
whatever la.
i did my job,
good or no good i have no comment.

Ketua G.P. didn't come =(
at least Pn Zahrah came.
Thx to Pn Chai for lending LCD although can't be used that time.

all ex-seniors wait for gathering ya...
after spm we go buffet or yum cha la...
depend on time... u all always busy d...

23 days

23 days to trial and i am still online...
what the hell i am thinking....
!!!

Hari Kokurikulum

i decided to write today before my memory fades

early in the morning,
i start to be nervous,
when i should wake up at 5.45am,
i wake by myself 5am...
too early,
i can feel my heart keep on pumping....
hate this feeling
i wait until 5.30am only go out of my room,
scare that my mum will ask why i didn't sleep well
ate maggi mee, end up half left due to no appetite
no care... i take my bath then go school at 6.10am

reach school by 6.30am
not all so on time, and i most hate their timing
late late late late
ady noob still want late
don't want use bad word for this post....
hng
messing with name tags, landyards, whistle.... oh my god
pls take care of your own things la
tak boleh tahan...
7.07am i request them to masuk baris,
but i wait until 7.20am only all can stand quietly, with no more lapsap things to do...
really !@#$%
don't get my nerves again next time

after assembly all PC participants are quarantine
Tn Anna's presence make me more nervous...
out of my expectation
we waited in 3A,
from 8am+ until 11am+ only is my team's turn...
sigh, fat mou ady
news from kawad team make me more worry
mistakes, wrong this wrong that...
don't repeat them ok?

Pertolongan Cemas(PC) scene is given early to us
we planned as usual
but obviously when get to real scene i mess up the plan again
i assigned wrong ppl to wrong casualty(1st mistake)
i left out the hysteria casualty alone for the first 5 minutes(2nd mistake)
i forget to ask all members to record down the details(3rd mistake)
i didn't apply C-collar for the fainted casualty(4th mistake)
i couldn't help my members in handling case(5th mistake)
of course there are many more that i didn't realize
but
this time experience make me more determined
i am not talented to be a leader,
i promise i will not lead any team in future,
and yet we still have much to be improved.

after the scene, i hoping to meet the judges for comments
but pn samsiah want to find me and kok ong
so we went to find her
pn zahrah tell me... bsmm(kawad) is the team made most mistake
oh my god...
i couldn't believe it
pn samsiah just keep on talking to me and kok ong
realizing that my gastric started again,
i start to complain to KO..
LOL, at first i plan to buy food geh,
but announcement for majlis hadiah comes, so no food for me again

i went down to find yi chwen, jing lin.
we plan to find the judges
but the teacher pull us into the hall
saying need someone to clap for pemberian hadiah to the judges
of course we are willing to do that
many PC participants is there
after the ceremony, we meet the judges for the comments
they said mistakes that we made, treatment need to be improve,
not fast enough ....................
so many
sigh
i apologize to su chyi via sms, thinking that she may be disappointed with my team's poor performance

majlis hadiah
for kawad-
1st-SJAM
2nd-Kadet
3rd-Pengakap
Sagu Hati-BSMM =(
Ketua Platun Terbaik-Pengakap

for PC-
1st-BSMM
2nd-Taekwando
3rd-SJAM
Sagu Hati-Kadet and Pengakap
Ketua Pasukan Terbaik-Taekwando

okay, PC team we do win but is with bad performance
even cik rosnah also say to me-ini mesti menang ni, kalau tidak malulah
sigh, nothing to say.
chai yean really talented to be leader,
pls don't waste your talent ya.

photos pls wait next post ya... now is too late

30/7/2010

memorable day
i went to WWF FMD in Pavillion with
Richard, Sook Wei, Bee Sim, Chi Shan and Shirley
so happy
first time go out and craze at night
we froze on the floor
we danced
dancing all together is really different feeling
it is like a spiritual shaking,
all together for an aim...

in fact,
i still haven't decide to go in the morning...
they tempted me...
XD
thanks god they did that, if not I will regret

get some drawings of tiger's pattern on our hands
i'm so lucky that i'm the last one get the drawing...
later than me geh.... so sorry LOL

after the first round freeze,
we had second round of dance...
and then... third round unexpected dance... LOL
i love the last one... more tiring as less ppl and more space
after that... we had our so called dinner at Carl's Jr
the burger is so nice and big... almost i can't finish it

i went back home earlier as my family come to fetch me
bring Shirley back along since her house is near mine...

i still feel the excitement...
ITS AWESOME

废材

没错。。。
就是你，不用看，就是在讲你。。。
还看！！！
你就是一条废材。。。
我承认我是废材，
你不承认，很好，
那你也不是木材。。。
你说什么，
你是木材，好，既然你说你是就是lor。。。
但是，
你绝对不会是钻石。。。

我们是废材，
别人说你是废材，
你会说我不是，
你会说这不是我的错，
你会说是国家的错，
你会说是教育的错，
你会说是老师的错，
你会说是家长的错，
你会说是朋友的错，
你会说是电脑的错，
我们都会说世界的错，
但从来却不会说是我的错

你敢说你不是废材吗？？？
你知道Mother Teresa是谁吗？？？
你又知道Michelangelo Bounaroti是谁吗？？？
如果你不知道，
你一定是废材，
因为我曾经也是。。。
Mother Teresa & Michelangelo Bounaroti是世界名人，
我想大家应该懂前者是谁吧？？？
如果不懂，你真要去面壁思过了，
她是获得诺贝尔和平奖的人，
她将她获得诺贝尔的奖金全数捐给印度的老人们，
她的一生都在为印度的老人付出
花了40年只是在做一件事。。。
她可以用40年的时间来做一件事，
而且是尽力的做。。。
很尽力的做。。。
我曾经看过关于她的戏，
那一段很感人，
有机会一定要看。。。

再来，
后者Michelangelo Bounaroti，
你一定不认识，对不对？
没关系，google search下啦!!!
我讲下他翻译过来的名字---米开朗基罗。。。
有空去google seacrh 他晚年的photo，
你会看到一张驼背的老人，
不用怀疑，
这就是是他。。。
你一定会想他的驼背是天生的吗？？？
我说他不是，他的高度可是会比你还高。。。
为什么会驼背？？？
不懂？？？
你还说你不是废材。。。
你试一下在1600多的日子里，
长期对着天花板画画，
1600多天都在做同样的事，
就是画着壁画，
你说，他怎么可能不会驼背呢？？？
在1600多的日子里，
他的作品依然是世界不朽的作品，
那就是在西斯廷教堂天顶壁画。。。
这些画到现在还保留，
更难得可贵的是，
它现在不太需要太多的保护和修复工作，
这已经是500多年的历史了。。。
他也是一辈子都在尽力的做一件事。。。。

不管是前者还后者，
他们都是花了一辈子的时间，
只为了做一件事，
不需要你做很有成就的事，
你看他们只是做很小的事而已啊。。。
mother teresa也只是把印度老人带回她家一直到老人死为止，
Michelangelo也只不过将他强项发挥得淋漓精致而已，
但是，
他们却影响了全世界的人类。。。
mother teresa的慈悲，关爱让世界的人类了解了人与人之间的互动，
Michelangelo的才华，影响了欧洲人的文化、艺术，促成了后来的文艺复兴。。。。
这些人只不过尽力地做一件事情。。。

每个人都是废材，
只有尽力，很用力去做事的人才不是，
虽然，
可能会没有成就，
但至少你尽力了。。。
尽力了，却还得不到，
那也没关系，
至少告诉自己努力过、尽力过。。。
这样就好了。。。。^^
^^
^^
^^
^^
今天听了讲座，
题目：“你是一条废材！？”
如果，你看完上面的东西，
你还是觉得你不是废材的话，
请自动将题目的？去掉，
因为你已近是废材了，
没救的废材。。。。
如果，你看完了觉得怀疑自己是否是废材，
将你就把！去掉，
因为你还会检讨，
可教之材。。。。

不死鸟/凤凰鸟
是一种希腊神话中的鸟类。
它的寿命是以千来计算的，
它的身体看起来被火包围着。。。
据说，
只有在这一次飞行，
是它们在活的生涯里面，
最快的一次飞行。。。
飞行结束以后，
将引火自焚，
最后留下来的灰烬中会出现重生的幼鸟。
它们辉煌的成绩的过后，
最后，
只能从新来过，
一切获得从生

thanks to licia... who dun mind to let me share out this post  as i am lazy to type out again

her original post http://0315lovelicialicia.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html

21/7/2010

this few days rarely online...
but something i would like to record down here.

monday....
mr cheng said to me, after get out from biology class...
"books u carry is heavier,"
i nodded,
"but after u gone through all this, u be a better man"
i have no doubt.

tuesday...
pn zahrah...
"men die easily because they cannot handle stress"
lol
"i see u all like not aggressive in study"
totally agree

maaf... anda tidak dipilih

ish...
plkn
i sms-ed from 9am
wait till 10.20 like that also dun want reply me
banyak bodoh la,
then jin jie offered to help me
and i used kok ong also... scare the system sohai enuf
ish ish
then 12pm...
pn neo came in for maths
she asked who get and didnt
and me... is "havent reply"
most idiot answer...
suddenly jinjie walk to my place,
showed me the phone...
"maaf, ...."
enough
i enough waited and it is a negative,
very shit la
....
zzz
pity all that want go and didnt get

用心

用心的去做每一件事
最简单的东西
也要全心全意地做

从“你是一条废柴!?”学习

Charlie Chaplin's 3 Heart touching Statements

Nothing is permanent in this world, 
not even our troubles.. ! 


The most wasted day in life, the day 
in which, we have not laughed. 


I like walking in the rain, 
becoz nobody can see my tears.






Copy from Ms Amy in FB... someone i would like to call her my motivator

degenerate?

i think i messed up my things
from the first missing kad koku,
to my mekar progress in half-way blocked.
i have no more idea ady...
and now the class t-shirt.
first time feel everything out of my control
not playing important role as i am hyper insensitive towards colors...
especially purple...

now i really sense hyper urgency...
can i handle it?

f**king my bc

i enjoy writing blog in the midnight
nobody will disturb and nobody will peek from my back...

yesterday went to school with my dad...
my mum not go, may be she is not interested since i said that my results are poor
hari terbuka... so "many people" lol

when enter the hall
i can't found my class teacher lol
she is hiding in the end there =.="
i am so lucky that nobody at my class' table there
so we sat, then she showed the laporan kemajuan...
now i wonder why the book called laporan kemajuan if no kemajuan in it >.<
she just show us, then point out my bloody wound...
bahasa cina >>>C
T.T
why my bc can't get an B... i don't want C every time lo...
so sad la...

when back home...
kena f**k again
still the same thing same issue same tone same question...........
sien...

by the way, congrats to bsmm's stall organizer,
i don't know is who,
but definitely u all didn't make me down
unity and work
i am irresponsible enough the let go
so that you all will learn
complaints from other people about the leaders i would not care
u want to say me blind or what also can
i know i made correct decision

awaken

attended AFS interview,
i don't really think i stand a chance...

many things the volunteers there tell us...
culture shock, different language will be used...(not special as i ady expect)
most important, after u come back, u will know who is true friend...
*this one shocked me*
they say when u go aboard,
your friend will send u email
first week,
second week,
third week... nope
so u will realize who is take care of u, who not...
pathetic
i gone through this... primary to secondary

please pray pray hard for me... although i ask for the tough
________________________________________________________

rushing through my homework
badly informed from kok ong that bio is too much
zzz
no sleep for 2 days won't die right?

empty

time to end this pain

it is long enough to bring this to ending

today will be the meeting day =)

ready your asses to be kicked 

stayed in home for a few days

except going out to tuition and going to melaka for day trip

am i too lazy or too stressed with school works...

planning a few days ahead

tuesday-melaka

wednesday-night have tuition

thurday-no idea yet
friday-afternoon need attend interview, hope i get chosen
saturday-empty
sunday-father's day right? hmm, should get a nice restaurant


emptying myself to be clear 
too many lapsap d
==
anyone going out? 
bring me...
i am like fungus in my home

holiday; time to reboot

holiday...

i went to cameron highland...

as usual,

no spm books...

just got 3 books.

erm, shud say 励志小说...

now i found that i am thrown back...

so far from the others...

when everybody is ready....

i am still finding my way

every night i think....

i did nothing...

i let go kokurikulum for my academic...

now i didn't get both.

i let go my chance,

now i have no chance to change it...

take time to stop,

rest,

then go...

人类不会为休息而工作

人类只有为工作而休息

stop, restart, reboot...

just to clean spider webs and dust

lolz.
long time no blogging, 
mushrooms are growing already...


few things to say


exam...
this is a bloody exam...
so hard 
==
zzz
got regret for not hard working enough
especially bio 


birthday on exam day
funny lol
some teachers tell me happy birthday and i stunned...
Facebook again...
of course thanks to those who slapped me 
and don't have slapped me one.....
thanks to u all's wishes... before May ends...
and the big present ( heart know stomach understand la) ... 
thank you la...
another one... 
my cousin-Rin,
need to post your blog so big mea, paiseh de lea
haha


this exam is bloody + tips'ly'
speechless with other schools teachers' ethic code...

exam coming!!!

18 of May...
I'm not ready la
==

学会忍耐

人类因原则而活着
有些东西
不应该妥协
可是在能力范围之外
也无可奈何
唯有学习忍耐
再来搞东搞西的
小心我不干了...

luan sui

eeeeeeeeeeee
early sleep early wake
i agree
late sleep early wake + nap
i agree also..
now not my study methods got problem only,
even my sleeping times also have problem....
sohai
sleep early = less time to study
nap = less time to study
diao la
no sleep = more time to study?
not also
cannot concentrate if not enough sleep
WTF!!!
cannot plan well = plan to fail
i cannot let myself fail in spm la

responsibility and ability

friends having some dilemma about what happening
i sometimes also doubting....

responsibility and ability
which one u will choose?
before agm,
choosing new ajk
this is the problem that u will face.
after agm,
when a society should move
it does not function as u thought
yes,
u may thought he/she has the responsibility
but u forgotten he/she has the ability or not...
no,
u may thought he/she has ability,
but u don't know he/she responsible or not.
promises before agm
attitude after agm...
i'm so sorry
i can only say human is imperfect
nobody can be excellent in both
sometimes u feel u unable to do it
sometimes u feel u lazy to be responsible
that's normal

next
future batch
i can only say thinking immature
but somehow,
isn't that the elders should teach them
may be our time's up
leave them grow by themselves

活着，不只需要毅力

生活越来越不规律了
天天的生活周息都不一样
有点难透过气来
每次看见别人那么努力读书，拼课外活动
有点自责自己为什么那么懒


读书
有点迷失方向
不懂怎么读才是最好
我尝试过问以前的考生
他给了我一个答案
就是：“用你自己的方法”
天啊
又难，又懒，
我不懂怎么读下去
还是应该继续
硬硬的读下去


算了
不想再想了

figuring...

figuring all possiblities for mekar...
management board still not stable
members also not confirm also
may be i should be more drastic in deciding
pn samsiah's style is a bit too slow for me
be a effective editor is not hard...
how to be socializing with other forms ajk is harder
form 4, 5 and 6 seems like have their own life
may be i should ask pn samsiah to narrow down the namelist to who is necessary only

................
this few days don't have time to do revision,
may be i should try stop fb-ing and blogging....

time and things that need to do

so long until now
i can only say
time... decreasing
things that need to do... increasing
less personal time to online in front of computer
more and more homeworks everyday

dull life
happy life
busy life
less social life
i just wanna a success life
do what i want to do
be what i want to be
other things
sorry
no more in my mind
bsmm...
gotta kick u away so that u don't drag me
mekar...
i'll ask people to do things, no need i do all myself
(my job just supervise before teacher go through everything)

hope i can fit into this life as soon as possible
feeling myself more and more unfamiliar
dunno what happened...

属于我的明天之后的憧憬, 我迷信我的迷信

hmm
long time didn't post anything
feel like wanna voice out my views after reading shan en's blog...
sorry
i blew up our chance
that is once in a life
representing selangor
is a dream for many school members
i never thought that i can walk until there...

when god closes a door he opens another
first time i understand it...
we still have a chance... next year, but as vad
hope can team with u, shan en

___________________________________________________

feel wanna hang myself for wasting time
spm!!!
straight a's
where have my targets gone...
haiz
feel upset
after from 3 i have been fallen
hope i can find back my way to study...
idiot... now only be an idiot...
thinking to give up mekar's editor post, before it is too late
feel like must be

life should be in peace and undercontrol

life should be no chaos...
test... sucks, 
never study last minute pls...
life... more sucks, 
how come only my time not enough
i already give up my post in bsmm
and then come another from mekar pula...
i can't be look free,
if not everybody will think i'm too free
zzz


test test test
after school reopen, i think all my subject teachers will catch me for counselling
sucking result...
i think anybody also can get higher marks than me in any subjects...
what the fxck
pn samsiah ask me when only i'm going to be serious in study,
i have no answer for it...


pls leave me alone...

i'm not sad... nor giving up... i'm just fade up with politicking

6 of march
i brought yi chwen and jing lin to ukm today
all by myself
from kepong to ukm, by ktm
from ukm's ktm station to kolej ibrahim yaaccob, free shuttle bus
feeling nice as i know what to do and how to do something

7 march
training by a few trainers
even a medical officer come to teach

8 march
bsmm selangor's chairman, pn fatimah comes to support us
a demo made
zero error for me
happy
and the most important time comes
who will be chosen for youth team
finally
all of us in
although jing lin is in backup
at least all can go
but
azhar... ulu selangor's duno what
bising bising with Tn Muniandy... bsmm selangor's trainer
saying Tn. M bias in choosing for not choosing his youth
swt... who is the decider... Tn. M larh
all youth and vad also agree with Tn/ M when discuss among ourself when the elders are having theirs
lmao...

9 march
not feeling good
competition + exam is never nice
dunno what to concentrate
end up sleep in the afternoon
get a emergency call from su chyi during tuition
telling a bad news... pn fatimah has revised Tn. M decision
wtf... i dunno what azhar has did
but i dun feel like him ady
such a nonsense
if a somebody from chapter bising then can ady...
then all chapter also can bising to put in their people...
what for the pilihan peserta being done..
if kehadiran 100% also no use larh
pro is pro, noob is noob, u can't change that

anyway... next year... never give up....

no mood

dunno why... feel like don't have a target...
test and competition is ahead...
i should be aiming a good result, but now i'm online, finding and printing my notes..
i should be aiming the best for selangor team, but now i'm worry for my studies...
what the heck i'm thinking

who had gone through this...
someone please help me...

i feel like losing my future now

busy

haiz

training; revision

competition; test

what the hell every time all things crush into same time

just hope i can handle all of it well

be the best, not the better one

world is realistic....
no doubt for above statement right?
world is only choosing the best, then only better, then only good...
funny

when they can't get the best
then they find for the better one;
when they can't get the better also
they'll find for the good one...

why why why why why....

haiz
saturday and sunday gone...
just full with training
from 10am till 5pm
cham
a few more weeks to go
and test is coming also
first aid test, monthly test...
what else test also come
gg

come back to this blog...

this blog is cleared d...
problems fixed, so use back this blog pls...
haha

changed blog

http://polarbearstory.blogspot.com/

go to here, my new blog, same post, but less rubbish

miss my mp3 player

i feel missing my mp3 player very much now,
such a personal thing lost jor...


tuesday celebrated birthday for pn samsiah,
yeah,
we made her cry.... XD


thursday, pn neo's turn
oh gosh,
we didn't made her cry...
but made her post in FB
haha


"感谢你们今天为我庆生.我知道你们花了很多时间,精力去准备:有人逃课去练歌,有人晚上补完习还去买蛋糕,有人好不容易才买到礼物,有人生病了还来...... 虽然没掉眼泪,但我很感动.我不知道我在你们心目中占据了这么重要的部分,因为你们常笑我,气我,反我,不听我的话... 我不知道陈律师写的有多真实,如果是100%真心话的话,我真的很开心! 教书八年了,其中五年是和你们一起渡过的.我相信很难再有机会能陪一批学生五年.所以,请珍惜这缘分,毕业了请别忘了我. 感谢你们在我的生命里留下美丽的足迹." extracted from her FB


yes we walk through 5 years together
i don't think any other teacher understand us more well than her
by the way,
"You Raised Me Up" become a new hot song among us...


Bless me, so that i can find back my mp3 player ah~~~

life...

now i'm thinking what my life should be,
i feel that everyday i can't get enough sleep for this whole year,
except for the day after thaipusam duty,
sleep for 7 hours only...
everyday,
i have to wake at 6am, sleep at earliest 1am if don't have homework.

really should plan my life properly
and stop involve in bsmm's activity too much...
what's the purpose i put all form 5 to be penasihat?
i want all of us to rest and study...
and u all,
are idiots!!!
keep on asking form 5 to help...
stop this before i take any further action.

life for form 5 is only works,
teachers all also say like this...
really...
everyday only works...

count-downing for national first aid competition
12 of march, 32 days more...
and, now, name not confirmed,
i also don't now got be chosen or not...
but i dare to say,
NO TIME ADY AH!!!
thanks to lee yin that keep on helping to make notes,
even is for smkte, not smkk...

fast fast decide la....
haiz

6th of Feb and 7th of Feb

6th

today have school

so sien,

saturday also need to do homework...

haiz

and then

homework is adding on...

lol

i learn 1 thing

accept the homeworks...

lol

afternoon go to gemilang to buy some books

spm year, 

torturing year,

totally no time...

kok ong sms to wear red...

lol, i dun have red la...

so i borrow my dad d...

evening go to sookwei house first... walk to yong zhi's house first with hing and hamster

then together walk to Tanjung Rambutan plus daniel together...

5 ppl

go across road also dun wan pull me go

end up me and hamster standing on opposite site seeing them

lol... next time remember pull me when across road

when reach there ady a few is there

of course, most important, eat...

then when almost end we have a small performance...

i dun dare say that is good... bcause i last minute in d...

and also dun remember the lyrics well

haha

but it's ok

we enjoyed it

7th

can't sleep until 4am after drinking the ice tea in TR

then 8am like tat my mum wake me up

then 8.40am go to school

reach abt 9

go to IPK and reach abt 9.30... too early

nvm

wait~~

then PJ chapter got 1 ppl come, shan en...

then ulu selangor got 2 ppl come, dun rmb name

lol... today duno learn what, more sucks than state competition training..

complicating techniques and outdated techniques...

no eye see

thanks god su chyi come back when end

tell us forget what learned today..

XD

haha... praying hard 5 of us all can go

i hate ppl drag my time on useless things

yea...
i hate ppl drag my time on useless things
too frustrated when someone have to keep on the same things repeatedly
even idiots also know d
but still repeat
oh gosh,
time is there for something more important, for e.g. study or homeworks...
not to keep on repeat rehearsal
haiz...


homeworks is still like a mountains for me...
i hope i didn't stress up myself as i haven't start revising form 4's


i still can't understand the situation for national competition...
why why why
why still make such decision when we don't have anymore time to train...

complicated results make complicated consequences could cause complications

complicated results make complicated consequences could cause complications...
my quote for today


what the.....
results still haven come to me till night,
not until i sms Kenzo again...
and he msn me
telling me a complicating situation...
die,
how do u want me to explain to other,
gg...


what should i do?
wait again?
from monday till wednesday i want...
and get a such confusing answer...


die la....

wait wait wait

now is 5.06pm of 2/2/10
i have been waiting from yesterday early morning till now...
eeee
scare scare
fast let me know la...

by the way
happy birthday to 4 ppl
sjl, richard, pui leng and viviane
lolx...

start to thinking to study....
all friends seem like only focusing on study...
left me still playing around... haiz
complicated hope and feeling...
to be chosen or not...
to concentrate study or not...
so 烦

1st of february...

1st of february.... funny
chinese girls in my school all kena POTONG RAMBUT
funny right?
1st time got girls kena potong rambut...
everytime also boys...
and this time the girls REALLY MAD ANGRY
many parents also come to school for complaining
as school don't have give warning at first..
but seems like many guru disiplin is a GOOD DEBATER...
don't have give then give on the spot... of course, cut your hair on the spot also...
tomolo to be continue this matter, haha, school this time gg of being racist

BSMM organised ceramah today
not good
as many things again last last minute
but thanks to Kenzo for coming back to help
HIV and AIDS
not my pros...

haha... anyway... photos later ah... monday and tuesday always busy

pemilihan for national first aid competition

today wake at 8.30am... after duty thaipusam yesterday and sleep at 1am
gather at school to wait kang yong fetch us at 9.30am
then we go to Ibu Pejabat Kebangsaan

when we reach...
ppl from different cabang(daerah) ady come
waiting to have test
then we took paper test
and then have practicals-CPR, fracture and luka...
my CPR really gg
count wrong tekanan
become 10 tekanan 2 hembusan 1 round....gg

other session still ok... only my CPR... really... sucks
haiz
pray for the best, prepare for the worst... pengerusi pelatih tell all of us d

waiting for results on tomolo...
pray pray pray hard let my school go

thaipusam duty

lol
1st time duty in thaipusam in my life
unforgettable because leave home before 6am, reach home after 12am...
XD
geng leh
I also dunno how i stand so long

about 6am,
kang yong fetch me, hui yung, yi chwen, lee xin and jing lin from school
then we go to batu caves area there,
and then parked the car and have to walk to the caves....
walao eh,
so many ppl
i dunno how they wake so early and the walk with the kavadi so so so long

start duty at 9am
we are send to the dark cave...
XD
we squeeze with the crowd to go up...
such a mess situation
no eye see
everybody is squeezing, even some blame us why not help the smoothen the crowd...
lol, we are jaga jalan punya ah...

swt...
then dunno what time,
su chyi ask me go down and help them get the gloves and syringes from base...
haha, so i walk down and up for second time...
....
then after rest a while...
su chyi ank me and lee xin go to staircase there ganti orang...
so so so funny
the tuan incharge of staircase,
ask us to go eat first, then only ganti
when we walk down, i lost the other from ukm or bla bla place la
so me and lee xin go to base there find them... lost
then we walk up for the third time, to the stairbase to get their hp number...
they ady at canteen there... zadao
so we walk down again...
then we meet them at the base, and we have lunch 1st since they ady eat...
halfway eating... the ukm ppl call me to get a box of water from base when go up to the staircase base...
lol... forth time up-with a box of water

haiz... then we find someone to ganti lo... but mostly at first duty at staircase d is ukm ppl
so we hard to find someone in nearby to be replaced...
then we walk down again, thought that got someone in the middle
end up, we walked down for the forth time
and then walk up fifth time again, almost to the toppest part, to ganti ppl
thx god... i can rest liao...
after about 1 hr more,
su chyi put me and lee xin back into dark cave base...
haha, this time geng, i nearly slept because nothing to do...
so i become jaga pintu... at least have something to do...
but... sad...
the bird sure see me too free... so it shit right up of me...
thx god dun have drop on my hair... just my shirt...
zadao
the lee xin so happy...
"mou liong some"
haiz

then at night... we are sent to staircase again
zadao... the kavadi is getting bigger and bigger
and we are duty almost at the bottom part...
and the tuan incharge tell us go bottom to hide if rain...
and
it really rain out...
so we ran to bottom, and back to base as all ppl squeezing at bottom there...
haiz...
then we wait at top d down from 9 sth till 10 sth at base...
when back home ady 12 sth...

hmm.....

long time no post ady...
first post after sports day...
just a brief telling what happened...

19/1/2010
tuesday-my starting of ponteng kelas... lol
to teach afternoon session kawad...
zadao leh,
nobody dare to use afternoon session for a unit beruniform to kawad,
only me...
soh xin yee and jun xian together mad with me...
pity them,
ponteng with me just for....kawad
afternoon, continue kawad,
then night go tuition,
when tuition feeling not really well,
as i can't concentrate and feeling very cold...
damn, what a important time,
but caught a fever and cold at the same time
go to sleep right after tuition...

20/1/2010
wednesday-didn't go school
and took a mc so that i can rest
cham,
now only i realize so many thing i didn't do...
whatever la, time is there in future,
time to recover is just 48 hours left
keep on sleeping to get maximum rest

21/1/2010
thursday-again,
ponteng with same ppl but this time seet may follow also
i'm shocked since when start she refuse to join kawad
but
she requested to rejoin
and i of coz allow...
not enough of ppl make u don't have a choice
and yet,
i still not enough ppl
so i find back ajk that dun have join kawad... and finally,
complete and near to 30 ppl
better than last year la
whole day spent on kawad again and
i can't even understand anything teach by pn neo in add math after kawad

22/1/2010
friday-rehearsal
damn it
school's field
sucks
i'm getting mad when my flagger bringing my team to wrong direction
and the others
just like shopping
not even walking
keep on jump here and there to evade muds...
and after that train them harder and harder in basketball court...
a kadet lelaki's senior give me some good advices,
thx to wing hing(dunno got spell wrong anot)
yet, bsm only mei bo come back and see twice...
other.... no need say la

23/1/2010
saturday-sports day
i'm getting on fire easily in the morning
form 1... oh god...
they are so blurred
i don't think even they know that they are going for competition
but nvm la
got other ppl control them
then go to stadium
then start to train again....
i'm pushing them hard...
hoping they can do well, even better than a few years before
yet, half is still new,
but it considered good as for newbies that trained for 2 weeks only...
and more semangat...
what bsmm emphasize everytime
poh bee come and see,
and we trained once again...
but they start to make mistakes...
now i know what's fear them
still poh bee...
although result is quite disappointing me...
but thx for poh bee fetching me back....
i think she know what i always fear to face of....
nobody would like to be disappoint a few times
but nobody would give up easily....

just for a rest

haha, 
blogging just for a rest, 
instead this post just for a quotes that i found


Anybody can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within everybody's power and is not easy. 


~~Aristotle 

First week of school

= =
first time write blog in 2010...
open school so busy
first day ady have homework
haiz
i ady know this year will have to suffer a bit
but...
don't like this larh!!
so stressing
everybody seems like more hardworking than me
and their speed in doing homework
haiyo
so fast
no eye see le...

next one,
23 Jan is Sports Day ady...
now only i realize my team less than 15 person
zZz
hopeless
especially fed up on some ajk that only know cakap cakap
no works seen
"congrats" for u all for succession in tricking me to give u all position in BSMM
but don't worry
i'll take back what you don't deserve.

later going to Star Edufair
gonna sampat with my friends...
haha, that's my only entertainment now