arhhh..... my new year's eve

zzzz
flash mob dance...
i missed the first
so i don't want missed the second also...
but...
it's on new year eve...
haiz
pray pray pray
my mom give me go...
if countdown with my friends together..
then i gg also
1 Jan my mom's birthday...
T.T
how...
now really dillema
and i just know my family planning a steamboat dinner on new year's eve
wtf la
i thought nothing will be on that night and i can go as i like...
die,
how also die ah...
no choice
later wake up go ask my mom...
hopefully she give me go
if not
i'll cry (may be)
XD

happy christmas? sad christmas?

my christmas is soooo bad,
first i'm online in the midnight of chirstmas,
count downing with friends online although i'm headache due to not enough sleep and insomnia... die

then 6.30am i wake up to jogging
so i sleep from 1.00am to 6.30am, total is only 5.30 hour and i'm so tired...
after jogging and breakfast, i go and have my sleep again(about 9am gua)...

about 10.30am, my father wake me up,
telling me that want to go Ikano,
lol,
i'm so tired and sleepy, then ask me go shopping...
i just follow, follow and follow...
then about 12.30pm, we go to kepong as i want to watch movie with sook wei, richard and chian chyi...
about 3pm the movie end...
then we go to the wind mill to eat ice... XD
then we walk back to jusco as richard want to buy something...
after finish buying,
we walk out to the bus stop...
i saw someone that look familiar but i'm not sure is he anot as i'm not seeing him for a long time(4years),
so i sms him to confirm... don't say i'm idiot as i'm not sure....
well, i'm happy even didn't get a conversation with him, but seeing a last time best friend is a pleasure too...

night,
i have dinner with my family, with cousin and grandparents also
then i online at my grandma house...
i'm quite in "fire burning" as i still haven't get 10 people to duty on sunday... what the fuck
i appreciate some ajk's fast respond on my sms as i have to organise everyone that is possible to duty
but
unfortunately
some use fucking reason to reject my request
u are busy, so do as i,
why don't i just rest in home and let u all to duty,
fucker,
ajk has ajk's responsibility,
u are not only incharge of ur job,
also have to take care the name of BSMM,
don't SPOIL the name PLEASE!!!

无奈

我是垃圾?
我觉得是,
看了康涌的blog,
更觉得自己是垃圾，
看着bsmm的沉沦，
却无可奈何，
更不用说有什么突破。

有朋友开导我，
算是少数知道情况的，
告诉我，
学校的课外活动，
渐渐没落，
我们也没有办法，
唯有希望不会倒在我手上。

To be alone is to be different, to be different is to be alone.
Suzanne Gordon, Lonely in America, 1976

talk rubbish

haha, this is the first post for my holiday...(precisely should be from camp until now)
kakaz

hmm, start from camp first
camp is from 16-18 nov
such a long time before...
haha, camping is such a tiring thing...
but at least better in home...
in home i just know eat, sleep, play... and continue everyday...
first day we depart from our school...
morning, and a few forget bring original ic...
can't blame ms tiang so angry about that since ic is such a important thing...
and then bla bla bla, we arrive to kuala woh before check in to sufes campsite...
in kuala woh...
just a stream...
and a few of us so mad playing the water..
since we started the water fight, and then in wet condition,
so we just enjoy ourselves...
haha, and the form 2 really innocent, we pulled them into the water...
can't blame us..
just enjoy mah, holiday what...
then go to campsite, bla bla bla, have lunch,
and then they setup their own tent,
ajk in pavillion,
again, can't blame us, we are in kinda tire condition...
and then start activities...
some are not happy with the session to want them to perform,
bla bla bla,
then obstacle course,
and then we have to cook our own dinner...
and i hate bad weather...
rain during starting up the fire...
damn it...
but finally we are the first group to eat...
wakakaka... can't blame us... ajk group are too pro for u all...
and then after that have ceramah from ms sally and supper, and then bla bla, and then ajk meeting in the midnight,
after that sleep in meeting hall......

second day,
morning, go jungle tracking,
6am morning call,
5.15am my phone rang rang rang,
so swt,
we keep sleep after stop the rang, until 5.45am...
then go out to wake campers out,
after that breakfast,
then go jungle tracking,
i follow at the back with jeff and hing,
so funny,
we wait in front de to move until we like a statue,
and we stucked waiting at a slant,
thx god richard also at the back with jeff,
if not,
booomp,
i'll fall like a rolling stone...
haha, then we move back to campsite through river(shud say longkang)
then we have lunch...

after that, we have treasure hunt,
lolx
so mafan
i totally don't understand the english terms...
haiz
next,
king's finger,
wakakaka
luckily i'm in the same group with a few tall guys...
no need go up,
haha,
after that 12 feet wall also,
so swt,
i think anyone that is dragged by me 100% is violently treated since i not enough force,
then only can solve with violence, haha
after that is the closing ceremony,
ohohoho, group presentation in front,
haha,
some so funny, some normal sikit,
but my team de,
last last last minute only discuss,
lolx
but at least got perform la...
then is the prize giving,
then BBQ
lolx, BBQ, when bbq so many funny things happen,
sook wei marry with richard,
ceremony la, requested by us, supported by ms tiang ^^
ms tiang really good la,
she make sure her "daughter" marry a good man, haha, don't kill me arh~~
haha,
after that they play games, i find food as i'm extremely hungry
then later and later some go to sleep le, some still in canteen,
i still in canteen till 1am+ gua, not remember liao,
play cards with bee sim, jeff, kok ong, kam wah, and dunno who liao, most important is the yue sin yee,
mad ppl,
how she play card you know, win within 3 moves,
haiz,
i sit next to her, but have to wait 30 moves,
lolx,
suan, and then she like a witch, go and predict the weather,
waiting for meteor rain, lolx, then i go sleep, beh tahan liao...

next day(precisely continue sleep de day), i wake at 5.30am
and then wait till 5.45am or 6 like tat and wake them up,
then have a bath,
lolx, thx god have heater, if not i die in the bath room,
then have breakfast and then pack and go cameron...
in cameron, we go to the waterfall first...
such a great place but i first time go,
this is due to my mother brainwashed before me telling me there is dangerous,
swt,
such a nice scene is dangerous,
lmao, she is so shocked when she see the photos we get...
then we go to top of cameron,
first is rose valley, then boh tea farm, then honey farm, and then they go buy vege, then cameron tea,
honestly, cameron tea is mush nicer and cheaper than boh tea,
but the bastards, (not good to blame too much, later get cancer),
don't have try cameron tea...
nvm, then we move back...
until tanjung malim(what the hell is this place, i till now still duno) for dinner,
the dinner, is better than i thought...
another i forget,
the driver, ohooo, so pro,
when pass the hump,
he step on the accelerator, not brake,
lolx,
nothing to say about him...
then we reach school at 9pm like tat,
then bla bla bla and then i go back...

saturday... report card give out,
lolx,
nothing to say about pn samsiah,
late and don't have answer my phone...
but nvm,
more paiseh de is,
my mum so in hurry and directly sit in front of her when she reach...
a bit paiseh although we come first...
then we go back.... not much to say about it...

then on 24th, tuesday, i go for movie 2012 and karaoke
with jeff, kok ong, bee sim, chi shan, daniel , kah yan, connie and melanie...
kakaz,
we go to KL Sentral first then go to monorail jln imbi station(time square)
haha, connie and kah yan so pro la,
they know the place so well until no need see the direction board...
haha, we have movie first then sing k...
when karaoke, really omg,
so many songs they sings and pro la... i also not sure is pro anot because i not familiar with some songs...
haha, then have some my favourite of course i sing la...
then bla bla bla until love story...
lolx
we shouted...
so swt... haha, but fun...

many things

yoyoyoyo, today is the first day after exam~~~
hurray~~
can have holiday la~~~~

...............


not so fast
still got things waiting me to do...


camp-oh lame, sook wei expect me to do many thing, but that's what gotta when accept this job, nvm, i can stand on it...


my ajk-more lame, all form 3 ajk seem like nobody's coming to school, want them gather and meeting sure make me feel mad, but never mind also, yi chwen 
can solve it, that's what a assistant should do...


exam results-shit la, my bc just get 61marks!!! 61, wadafarq, next year how to get A hor, A- also impossible nia...(thanks to our new SPM grading, >90 only get A+, 89-80 get A, 79-70 get A-, shit la, one exam 100 marks, 30 marks is for A, MCB)


________________________________________________________________


next,
today went to Jusco for Michael Jackson's This Is It
with my gang-bee sim, chi shan, kok ong, richard, chung ping, daniel, shirley, yuen ling, jolynn, melanie and xin ning...


this should be nicest movie for me, 
without any special effects, 
only music and dance...
now i know why so many people admire Michael Jackson,
he is great,
with passion on music and dance,
and with such a wonderful performance,
nobody can better than him now...
show your admiration to him please,
he not only a start, an artist, a singer, a dancer,
he is the one who care for environment...


but today before the movie start have a sohai in the same movie box with us,
sohai him, sit in front of us,
when the trailer is on, the son of bitch, blame us for talking,
with a polite phrase-shut up, kiss my ass,
sohai ah, when trailer don't talk then talk when the movie on?
kiss your ass, yer, your ass so dirty, ask a dog to bite la,
he should be grateful the movie is not Terminator or Transformer,
if not I gonna kick his chair like a vibrator, 
brainless, CCB, don't let me know who are you...
________________________________________________________________


another thing, 
when exam today, 
we witness our own class being demolished by a group of uncivilized people,
how dare they punch our class door with us seeing in the next block,
this one really cibai,
don't let me know who punch our door to open it as it is locked,
so uncivilized people, keep on punching our door as it murdered his/her mum,
dunno how to ask ah, 
we don't have key meh,
study so long liao, (I assume them is Form 6 as only Form 6 so free)
and have gone through so many oral test also,
open mouth and ask la,
I pity your language teacher, 
teach u all so long, end up punching other people's door because you don't have key...
sohai...

听君一席话...找回自己

刚和siew cheng谈完
原来我真的迷失了自己
她提醒了我很多东西
以前到现在
我真的变了很多
我忘了以前努力读书的目的
忘了父母为了补习花了多少钱在我身上
忘了为了证明自己的能力牺牲了多少
忘了考不好成绩的后果
忘了为奖学金对自己许下的诺言
或许我真的须要把以前的我找回来

很多东西
不只是天经地义
还是理所当然
应该和不应该
只在有没有先例来定夺

我
真的浪费了很多时间
真的应该找回我输不起的心态
来成为读书的动力

我
应该是时候再一次证明自己了吧?

“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.” 
quote of Madame Curie-Laureate of Noble Prize for Physics(1903) and Chemistry(1911)

40th post... so less also want tell... mensiasuikan

yup, 40th post,
first lets tell from 30 september...
last day of september
pameran dan ceramah denggi and influenze A(H1N1)
so long the name
look pro
but just do in makmal
lol
and only for form 4 and 6 classes in afternoon
let see some pic















that's us, not all, who left out??? chicken little and pro hing i think

finally found a photo with pro hing and chicken little
(p/s: hing, sorry ah, just can see ur back only)

group pic, but not clear, really sayang...
later add more pic, or go facebook see...

friday have bsmm mesyuarat agung
this year really funny
all teacher gone back
dunno what they hear during assembly
informed ady also say dunno
neither my nor ajks' problem

then on sat is mooncake festival
this year really kelian lo,
at first promised jeff to go to "chung qiu wan hui"
but have to fong fei gei...
not don't wanna go,
but sicked,
really sorry, but i am ready to be "niao" on wednesday

sunday, my primary school's
SJK(C) Khai Chee's Carnival
damn many ppl there
but i don't have any picture for u all since my camera is so noob
most important is meet with old friends and teachers
chye hui, mei hui, ming hen, kah yan, wei qi, ming hui(can't recognise him ady), viviane, kai yan, and of coz the twin chu hui and yun hui... all my old friends... all not same secondary school with me...
and of coz with old teachers...
mdm ong, mdm sim, mdm how,ms loh and ms wong....
really 2 years didn't met them ady
all changed,
white hair all come out ady,
but ms wong is still so cheerful,
mdm how is still so caring,
mdm ong, i chatted with her personally after my freinds left,
she seem so familiar with me as just as same when i'm primary six,
mdm loh, still same style,
fierce to now students, but nice to old students...
of coz still got many
but only main is written out, if not my blog will full with 1 post only...

next time continue, just chased kelvin in restaurant city,
i'll off facebook as i said...

tomorrow

tomorrow is pameran jor

haiz

last minute work

last minute plan

last minute makes things bad

1st is the cik rosnah don't give us use the 3E-reason is ganggu PnP (lol, if we use speaker i think more ganggu PnP)

2nd is the form 5 have ujian gempur (sien, ady trial and blok system, still got ujian)

3rd i dunno what will happen tomorrow,

the dewan so "big"

put in penceramah and whole class of students,

unimaginable...

hope everything ok tomorrow....

apologise means nothing if nobody tell me what's my fault.

happy ending holiday

lolx

nothing is not happy wish in my blog,

happy holiday and happy ending holiday...

omg,

i don't i studied anything in this holiday,

let's see what i had done within my holiday........

keep playing in my grandma house, because aunt come back from johor (suck est thing i done, because it don't really like something i should do, and take place from saturday to tuesday, sien)

go tuition physic in tuesday (lol, i don't think this 2 hours very important)

wednesday i don't really remember what i had done, most probably is play facebook (p/s: i don't know how to stop addiction on facebook, somebody pls tell me)

buy movie ticket (of course is unplanned, if not i won't spend my time with my bro on this stupid thing and of course, is on thursday)

watch G-Force (something happened in Friday)

cut-ed my hair and go tuition physic and go grandma house-weekly routine (another day with nothing done)

and left today,

haiz sien,

it's too late to study now~~

it's too late...

chatted with old friends

chatted with some old friends today

nice to chat with them

even though is through msn

nice feeling

feel that we are back to primary age

still so close to each other

chatted with wei qi,

although she suddenly disappear from msn without any reason

but sparks my interest to find other to have a chat

so chatted with chi kang and christine.

now only i realize what had passed will never come back

we used to be so friend

so close

so free to each other

but this no longer we share

but

still we had time together

still apart of our memories

i hope no one will forget it

although i lost contact with some of them,

i still hoping i can met some in 4 october,

4 october, my primary school-khai chee's "jia nian hua"

see u there...

Blogging idiotically

time goes~~

flying away and leave me here,

waiting to exam,

zzz

sien ah!!!

i thought

now is going-exam time,

now is should be ready with studies,

but,

now i'm playing with the stupid restaurant city,

online every hour purposely for restaurant city，

no more gg-ing but now dekaron-ing!!!

sien,

i feel sorry for myself,

i didn't study seriously like a student should this year,

i didn't do what i should do as i promised to someone.

i seem like didn't fulfil anything that i plan,

wasting time on plan,

plan plan plan,

and result is out of plan...

no mercy for lazy people,

mercy is only for those who willing to sacrifice...

one more time,

failure is a success if u learn from it...

Seclusion

I am gonna leave my blog in un-updated mode.

hope goodluck for me...

in war mode,

from now...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Goodbye my August

Goodbye August, and my holiday too...

today is first day of school after holiday...

arhh... T.T

stupid thing still happening,

homework(s), notes... zzz

endless,

and pressure!!!

what the hell,

now what month ady,

i'm so lazy, napping in the afternoon,

forgotting all my target...

mcb,

i won't forgive myself if i continue like this...

everyday is tiring for me...

and emotional is going to out of control...

!!!!!!! don't suka-suka "niao" me,

i don't think i can tahan anymore!!!

30 Hour Famine

Yoyoyo,

yesterday just back from 30 Hour Famine.

So happy and yet so high,

the countdown concert really syok la,

everybody is so high, hoho~~

the 30 Hour Famine start from saturday 12pm

i joined a D.I.Y camp in kepong,

organised by very "kind" de kang yong.

to make sure i'm not bored,

i pulled some frens(sook wei,pui yeng and xing ning),

hehe, sorry arh.

In fact, withouht eating foods make the activities more flexible,

no need to wait everybody eat(since got many ppl eat very slow and i'm one of the best example).

more activities, more time, more interactions between campers.

and happy is i make some new friends,

although many older than me.

yet, H1N1 seems still haunting us,

everybody is wearing mask in yesterday countdown concert.

when start i also wear mask but i can't tahan with the difficult breathing.

haha, nvm la.

so, everybody,

fight hunger pls,

You've Got The Power

one day holiday... one day to think

yayay, 1 day of holiday...

computer games fill up my day,

happy happy and blur blur went through a day...

so good,

no need to read add math and not even write also...

have some free time and thinking my past,

from form 1 till form 3,

time from time,

friends that i make in this period,

friends that leave me in this period,

whoever gave me lessons,

whoever backstabbed me.

thank you to u all,

i learned what i should i have learned.

H1N1

zzz

H1N1 in smk taman ehsan,

just confirmed yesterday.

Please take care of your health if u have been in bilik rawatan

nothing to say about what happened to me on friday,

just one thing to tell,

keep yourself as hygenic as possible...

august 12

today a bit free time, so i can blog

everybody seems to start studying for final

haiz,

i'm stucked with add math.

as there is add math,

then i can't revise other subjects well.

i don't want continue s**king like this,

i want to study well,

study what i want in uni.

help me!!! anyone got any idea how can i do it?

i want to rest!!!

I want to rest,

I really want to rest,

I dun want to take this "b_ _ _ _ n" anymore,

I'm not a good leader,

Why I have to do something I'm not good in?

~~~~

Yesterday i chatted with siew cheng,

what we have chatted is "infinity",

chat half way we talk about kang yong and thinking to get his opinion,

and miraclely,

he online at the time.

xD,

then we added him in,

and what he tell us only 1 is clear>>> ur year should the 1 who lead 2 years

T.T

then other questions all is>>> depend u all, whatever....

no eye see.

I want die but he don't let me die this time,

haiz...

last friday we also have a meeting,

and shiao yin also come(senior ho~~)

a few suggestions for form 3 come out,

thankgod i have same calon with hui yung,

but she threw 1 question out>>> why u all don't do 1 more year? they still don't have experience...

=="

nothing to say about this,

because form 5 and form 4 mostly agree this.

i don't want say why they say so, because the reason is humiliating.

I just want to rest!!

zzz

bad week

bad week for me this week,

i seem like headaching entire week,

blur bluring for everytime...

a few days before i read richard's blog,

pity on him,

just wrote something and get a such bad result,

threatened everytime.

no comments about what they are doing but pls care

someone's feel before any word or action u take... ^^

blog should be a place where u share your personal feelings,

telling something in another way.

be relax,

i'm not here to cari pasal...

pls pray that H1N1 stop before school stops

(p/s: school stops i also dom't mind)

nothing, just mumbling...

yesterday went to Cineleisure with jeff, bowin and kok ong,

lolx,

shiang kwei "fong fei gei" at last minute,

really last minute,

just before we stepped in the cinema. haiz

1.30 sth i go to kepong to fetch them,

motive is very clear,

because my parents worry me single in the shopping mall,

and if i'm alone i have to wait 3 of them with my parents,

xD, macam buadak kecil lagi...
after that when we arrive, my dad drop us in front of cineleisure,

suppose is in front, but dunno why so quite.

nvm, most important that's the door.

then we go and pay the tickets,

RM10.00, still ok for sunday,

if more then that would be expensive.

after that we just keep watching the Fly fm MTV Asia dunno what things there,

everybody was so high as we watch from upstairs.

then we have Mc Donald,

not me, but only 3 of them they have the burger.

i just curi makan fries,

(dun blame me)

and the mr ng and mr chen,

i'm sorry to say,

their toungue got some problem,

a french fries from Mc Donald is salty enough,

ok? salty, how dare they add 3-4 packet of salt,

omg, how salty is the fries and our "kind" ms wong keep blaming our mr chen since

he mixed 3 packet of fries together...

nvm, eat once won't get high blood pressure.

around 3 we stepped into the cinema, and the seat is so different,

with GSC and TGV,

the place to put drinks,

is so low,

make me almost poured out the coke,

zzz, next time go 1 U watch,

at least can play bowling while waiting.

no comment for the movie,

just dun understand why snape say "i'm the half-blood prince"

so funny.

after the movie end,

they walked out and get taxi,

as i'm cruel enough to bring them there and left them there also,

haha...

as i have my destination with my family,

go subang to eat porridge,

how bowin and kok ong get "cold" by me as i tell them this...

enuf, too long ady...

unusual=abnormal+less probability

this few days feel much more better,

abandoning something that is important,

sorry if really disappointed u all.

"having good news time by time is good for health"...quotation from me.

dun believe?

yesterday i got a phone call,

quite important, because what had not done for 2 years can be done now,

hehe,

i won't reveal here,

if u want know better ask ajk bsmm,(p/s:i haven't tell them)

later la.

today is the last day of july,

ending of the seventh month,

3 more month to year end exam.

this time test is really hurting,

wtf, really hurt,

keep blaming by someone everyday is not something funny,

especially when u want to online will have someone reminding what had happened.

Interviewed form 3 ajk today,

quite good.

9 people interview 1 person in a time,

stress right?

just a simple interview,

no need scare like this,

won't decide your future in bsmm in future very much,

instead just asking opinions.

well,

this time interview really shocked me,

something out of my expectation turn up,

and u all don't seems have a same opinion on next chairman.

this quite worrying me.

i hope u all can gv me same calon now.

and special comments for 3,

i know we had dropped a special hard question for u 3,

but u all should know we have to be responsible for what we choose(first lesson),

then u have to suite yourself with what u are given(second lesson),

and respect our decision(not a lesson but an order).

face the truth,

and u all still have us.

feel like idiot

now i'm like idiot

my pameran i left out so many weeks until almost hyper-late from expected date

kursus FA also same like that

i dunno what happened to me after the test

i feel want to quit my kokurikulum,

give up all so that i can concentrate on academic...

what a bad reason,

i didn't done anything much for bsmm this year,

and my studies just like ass,

thanks to myself so hardwork online afterschool everyday.

now i want to pick up all my studies,

learn from beginning for add math,

study all other subs from begin to end,

what an idiotic move for a lazy person who didn't study from starting point

feel like want to give up,

really dunno why...

T.T

I dunno what to say about myself,

damn me,

what i get for my test,

like shit,

all i see only drop drop drop,

not only drop,

but is "drop very much"...

what's wrong with myself,

why so lame this time,

zzz,

damn it.......

i don't put very much hope for the subjects haven't give out yet,

all i know is i didn't prepared early,

all i know is i go out on the saturday before test,

all i know is i almost want to give up ady.

farq... i'm waiting for results,

just come...

I don't scared of you...

blek....

failure is a success if u learn from it...

Mixed mood...

Zzz,

My add math = my pain,

48 marks!!!

wadaf8rq,

i'm going to mad because of add math,

T.T,

how long only i can get at least a B3 for my add math...

I dun care!!!

year end i wan at least a B3,

even if need to do everyday i also will do,

damn it,

no subjects can defeat me like these except add math...

!@#$%&

and 1 happy news~~

hoho~~

i passed my physics!!

so happy,

even though is pass happy ady,

not like add math,

physics seem to achieve a new record,

making more ppl failed...

lolx,

what a pride for pn suhaida,

success to failed majority of 2 classes...

suan,

i won't take any risk for my year end,

even though sacrifice my gg time i oso wan to improve add math,

damn u... add math

Tired...

Today's add math and bio..

waliao...

i do stupid stupid stupid mistakes for both papers.

in add math,

i mistaken the coordinates...

at least i change it at the last minute,

really last minute, 1.09pm..

and my area i dun think i'll correct,

since the coordinates exchanged..

suan,

next time i won't sleep so late...

in bio,

damn it,

what am i doing,

i put anaphase for telophase,

how could i'm so stupid...

really shud not sleep late before exam...

and today get a bad news,

physics dun seems like many ppl can pass...

u know,

is P A S S !!!

i don't know what i'll get,

hope i can pass...

pray for me

Mad...

Now i'm really mad,

today's physics paper>>>death,

i totally stunned when i saw question 2,

so complicating...

BC even i dunno what i had done,

seems like i should put hard effort on BC... haiz...

and Moral... hehe... i dunno what i would get...

even though i can write until full,

but normally i didn't get marks for it.... hopeless test...

Tomorrow is add math and bio...

lolx...

i'm wondering who's so intelligent,

arrange the 2 most hardest subs in 1 day...

and i'm just get a "friendly reminder" from my mum

for my add math...

hope i can get at least B4 for add math...

Death for Sejarah

First day test= First death

Today have BM, English, Sejarah and Math.

Lolx, the english.... so hard...

half of it is literature(my weakness),

T.T

Sejarah...

the teacher is so "fast",

until haven't teach chapter 7,

lolx, i left the 2 theory blank.

Dun blame or question me,

i even dun understand chapter 6 well,

why shud i read chapter 7...

6 marks gone!!!!

6 x 2 =12....

12!!! that means i can only get 88 if i can score all the other...

T.T

Damn it,

I won't let this happpen again in year end test...

Murni's ppl,

Dun count on other to study,

U shud understand who is "other" now...

Dun bocor this ar...

Omg...

Tomorrow is monthly test..

Yup, monthly test.

HOW CAN I STILL BLOGGING!!!

I dunno what to do with my studies,

My life seems to be more busier than Form 3,

but less studies than Form 3.

Lolx.... i duno what to say about myself,

i duno what to study for sejarah,

all i see from chapter 6 is a bundle of names which i duno who are they,

and some info which is useless to me...

i duno who has set the syllabus for form 4 sejarah,

but obviously they have not reach their objectives...

Better i stop before going to something too sensative and can be detained under ISA...

Blek...

Satisfy

Yup,

I'm satisfied,

seldom i'm satisfy with what i had done,

but this time obviously have to praise myself a bit(some of u all also la),

good job,

and i'm proud of u all.

Saturday 18-7-2009,

Quizbee in SMK Kepong,

U guys had perform well,

Do u all know who u and I are facing?

The trainer are the best in Selangor(for first aid competition),

also have the 4th place team from Gombak quizbee

among your competitors(which is the team get first place).

of course i am proud of myself.

I trained 3 teams in 1 day,

giving whole stack of notes(seet may took it)

and some links(lee xin, jing lin, yi chwen and jun xian sure know it).

End up 2 teams get prizes,

2nd and 3rd.

Well done!!

First time i'm so satisfied,

so enjoy some of the pics,

here's the team: siaw yee, pei gee and seet may.

hui yung, jun xian and jenn hong...(3rd place... no bad huh)

Laevinia, Yi Chwen(who try to cover her face),

Lee Xin and Jing Lin...(2nd place leh, big clap pls!!)

Poor scout... come and be Ah Sei...

Here's me and Kepong's Pro.

from left, btm-Mun Yee and Kiat Xin

top-me, Kah Choon and Lee Yin

And teachers: Pn Bashiroh(who is coughing), Pn Suhaida(who turn up out of my expectation) and Cik Athirah(SMK Kepong's BSMM teacher)

And of course... big clap for myself...

long time didn't so happy,

even though i'm didn't win,

but i know BSMM now got hope...

Nice day for me...

sad

this few days my mood to be floating...

i dun know how to change my bsmm ajk panels,

i think they need a good, spiritful leader(obvoiusly not me),

and the progress of pameran, much more slower than i thought,

haiz... may be i shud rush more to speed up the process.

next week monthly test is coming...

T.T

i'm not well prepared...

everytime also like this, burn me at both ends...

and bsmm seems to need some advices,

no matter from members who involved actively or not,

outsider or seniors,

I ask for YOUR comments,

truthfully, honestly and gratefully pls tell me what's should bsmm do in future...

p/s: just leave your comment or msn also can.

thx a lot who willing to comments...

Forcing myself to be perfect....

well.... now i have friends that can't read chinese,
so i have to change to english...
so "cham" (my english sucks ==),
never mind,
u won't feel tortured, because u won't understand what i write(so lan si, :P).

next

this week a bit busy,
have to find ppl to join smk kepong bsmm's Quizbee,
due to monthly test start from 20 july,
and nobody want to join.... zzzz,
so, i used my favourite word>>> "ajk wajib" to force them go,
hehe, dun say that i'm cruel although i am,
(if u all automatically join may be i can belanja minum :P, now too late)

next
pameran denggi have to be done in this month,
and the stupid monthly test kacau my plan,
so have to push until last week of the month only do...
the progress seems to be slower than i thought,
but never mind,
there is always next month(haha).

next
look like i didn't keep my promise to kang yong to look for ppl to join 30 hour famine,
i only get kai jian until now,
hopefully i can get more within this week,
since no. of participants haven't achieve target.
find me if u sre interested... ^^

now,
third week of the month,
1 week before test,
i shud study from now...

haiz....
who says life just like a dream,
not a dream,
but is "nightmare"

2009上半年的最后一天

半年过去了，
该做的，该度过的，该后悔的，该试的，
都作了。
是时候说说究竟做过什么。
年头，
开学-白痴般的上了中四，
补习竟然在开学才来找，
有一点服了自己，
结果，第一次月考，成绩不堪入目，
add math还刚刚pass而已。
真有够残的。
还有就是hari sukan。
kawat烂到~~
做komander做到像我这样真是前所未有，
对队员仁慈到没眼看，
多谢poh bee比赛前来过刺激刺激我们，
才像样一点，
还有kang yong在最后时刻拔刀相助，
从selayang架车到kepong帮队员拿漏了的uniform。
然后就是selangor FA comp，
学了很多东西，
才知道自己之前是那么的自大，
不知天高地厚，
之前学过的只不过是冰山一角。
虽然只是候补，
但是很享受训练的过程，
被罚都会笑。
接着就是本校的orientasi，
siawyee临时临急得办，
再加上当时学校乱到，好像有暴乱似的，
几个学会同时办活动，
有够吐血，
幸好最后安全收场，
算是完美了。
然后就是年中考，
幸好都安全过关，
不过~~进步空间还多的很，
期待来临的考试吧。

半年，真的就这样过去了，
岁月不留人，
这是我这两天遇回两位相隔四年不见的朋友所体会到的，
接下来的半年，
第一个月-七月，
就有很多东西做了，
pameran, kursus PC......
已经等待很久了。
pameran,
kangyong那年办得很成功，
我也希望今年一样可以。
kursus PC,
也是kangyong那代办过后就到现在没办过，
希望可以一洗前过，
在换人之前办到像像样样。
以免以后引人诟病。

希望，总该在明天吧。^^

迷茫

最近有一点迷茫，

一直觉得自己很忙，

可是却不知道忙什么。

关于bsmm的-好久没管了，

关于读书的-落后别人酱多，还给人骂...(T.T)，

别的都没东西做...

总觉得自己有点无能用，

看到别人成就只能假装淡定的笑，

看到别人有所作为只能扮大方的接受。

有点后悔去年做的决定，

虽然这是一个不能说的秘密，

但我也曾经抱于希望， 期待着奇迹的出现。

从开始的四人，

到三人，

剩下两个。

或许我不应该再对于现实抱于任何期望，

然而路还要走下去。

应该信谁好，

自己，还是别人。

继续，还是不留下。

继续，可能阻挡革新，

不留下，又怕他们不会。

长期在绝望中度过已成习惯，

失败的感觉就像酸酸苦苦，

持久了就没感觉了。

假期快乐

半年过了，
什么东西都是迷迷糊糊地过了，
书，连选科目都还没选好，
活动，办到不像样，还在假期前淋我一桶冷水，
（不去quizbee的给我小心点，有机会都不去，浪费！！）
时间，匆匆的走了，
距离spm还有一年半，
连路都还没选好，
真是有够失败。

form 4走了一半的路，
目标，志愿，升学的问题，
涌着来，
补习，
连绵不断的上演着。

祝我假期快乐。

休息/考试

拼了那么久，
是时候休息了。
在过三个星期，
我要确保我每天都睡个够。
晚上九点睡到早上十点，
哈哈，
做梦都没那么好。

在多一个星期就考试了，
blog,
我没放下。
虽然之前说要闭关，
但是反悔总该可以吧。
别骂我，哈哈哈。

冷静

Blog冷静了几天，
是时候写些东西了。

上个星期,
开始早睡了。
从之前的两点（没错，是凌晨）改到十二点睡。
虽然只睡六个钟头，
但是对我这种夜鬼来说，
睡够六个算很够了。
功课，
虽然少了一点，
但是考试即将来临(天啊,我还在写blog），
应该乖乖在家里读书了。
哈哈。
够了，应该闭关了。
在来临的两个星期不会再写了，
回复留言而已。

失败的胜利

今天辩论赛，
对垒的是中五的学姐们。
在九点多，
忽然有两个中五的参赛者来找我们说，
“我们其实还没有准备好，前天和昨天都有活动。“
“可以延迟吗？”
我，Kok Ong和Bowin都被突如其来的讯息吓呆了。
当然，
为了公平竞争，
我们同意把赛期延迟至考试与假期后。
又过了不久，
她们又跑回来说，
“不要延期啦”
天呀，
到最后结果还是一样。
算了，
我们去找老师。
结果，
老师的意见是，
“继续啦，她们没准备就要自己负责。”
幸好在下课前就有定案，
不然提心吊胆的要命。

放学后就比赛了，
比赛时，
我很紧张，
结果，
很“鱼”的，
在辩到一半，
我的稿撞到我的笔，
结果整支笔飞到地上去。
连老师看了都暗笑。

即使赢了，
老师的评语却指出我们的弱点：
对题目剖析得不够深入，
发问的问题不够一针见血，
还有，
看稿辩论。

转校之风

转校，
这个词在我们朋友间徘徊至今。
那天志颖才转校。
当大家还在依恋着的时候，
Jin Jie却在网上说，
我们应该想想，
究竟朋友、学业还是未来比较重要。
朋友之间的友谊究竟能持续到SPM后吗?

或许，
学业与未来很重要，
但是，
没有朋友在学业的路途上陪伴，
孤军作战，
又有什么意义呢？

心情

今天有duty...
Duty球赛，
并不是苦差，
痛苦的是，
需要Duty到六点多七点，
真是有够累的。
原本在下午有补习的，
为了Duty,
还计划把补习改到晚上七点半。
就因为塞车，
把我的计划给搞砸了。

没关系，
至少今天Duty后有一些收获。
很难得的，
BSMM三位AJK都有机会坐在一起超过三小时。
我们之间聊了不少话题...
关于最近的，未来的，S团体的，
我们都无所不谈。
最重要的是，
关于接手的事，
我们也谈了，
心中也有了盘算。
虽然如此，
今届的未完，
请别虎视眈眈我们的职位。
计划和活动，
依然在进行中，
该知道时就会自有分晓。

身体状况有点差（感激坐在我周围的都是病猫），
希望自己不会体力支透。
心情也有点乱，
依然徘徊着该不该继续P.Perakaunan和EST。
许多人都已经决定了，
而我，
在决定该不该继续P.Perakaunan和EST的当而，
还为补不补Chemistry痛苦着...

秘密

秘密，
是每个人私隐的最后底线。
当这底线被攻陷，
就没有私隐了，
和赤裸裸被摆在台上毫无分别。

有些人，
野心很强，
想看透别人，
却不愿别人看透，
自相矛盾，
迟早会得精神分裂。

等待与寻找

等待着奇迹的出现，
等待着贵人伸出援手，
等待着热心人的帮忙，
等待着竞争对手的堕落，
等待着志同道合的人的出现。

自从2006/2007 BSMM SL(Y)139的领导层退休后，
至今BSMM SL(Y)139依然未恢复元气。
我最大的奢望/希望，
BSMM SL(Y)139可以媲美县内所有的Belia，
甚至超越他们，
这个奢望/希望，
需要AJK的支持，付出，牺牲，尤其是将在这两内年毕业的，
计划，
不是没有，
而是没有适当的主角。
一个星期，
我只要一个星期，
给我找出这个主角。
在一个组织内，
孤掌，是难鸣的。
我一只手掌，也快拍烂了，再强也无用。
请替我找出适当的主角。

不明白

不明白，为何现在的AJK那么“聪明”.
不明白，为何人那么多东西烦.
不明白，为何中四的功课永远做不完.
不明白，为何那么多人爱比较.
不明白，为何许多人都比我出色.
不明白，为何BSMM SMKTE永远都不能比St. John出色.
不明白，为何Murni的待遇永远比Mulia糟糕.
不明白，为何朋友都那么空闲.
不明白，为何许多人都没有包袱.
不明白，为何我始终不明白.