arhhh..... my new year's eve

zzzz
flash mob dance...
i missed the first
so i don't want missed the second also...
but...
it's on new year eve...
haiz
pray pray pray
my mom give me go...
if countdown with my friends together..
then i gg also
1 Jan my mom's birthday...
T.T
how...
now really dillema
and i just know my family planning a steamboat dinner on new year's eve
wtf la
i thought nothing will be on that night and i can go as i like...
die,
how also die ah...
no choice
later wake up go ask my mom...
hopefully she give me go
if not
i'll cry (may be)
XD

happy christmas? sad christmas?

my christmas is soooo bad,
first i'm online in the midnight of chirstmas,
count downing with friends online although i'm headache due to not enough sleep and insomnia... die

then 6.30am i wake up to jogging
so i sleep from 1.00am to 6.30am, total is only 5.30 hour and i'm so tired...
after jogging and breakfast, i go and have my sleep again(about 9am gua)...

about 10.30am, my father wake me up,
telling me that want to go Ikano,
lol,
i'm so tired and sleepy, then ask me go shopping...
i just follow, follow and follow...
then about 12.30pm, we go to kepong as i want to watch movie with sook wei, richard and chian chyi...
about 3pm the movie end...
then we go to the wind mill to eat ice... XD
then we walk back to jusco as richard want to buy something...
after finish buying,
we walk out to the bus stop...
i saw someone that look familiar but i'm not sure is he anot as i'm not seeing him for a long time(4years),
so i sms him to confirm... don't say i'm idiot as i'm not sure....
well, i'm happy even didn't get a conversation with him, but seeing a last time best friend is a pleasure too...

night,
i have dinner with my family, with cousin and grandparents also
then i online at my grandma house...
i'm quite in "fire burning" as i still haven't get 10 people to duty on sunday... what the fuck
i appreciate some ajk's fast respond on my sms as i have to organise everyone that is possible to duty
but
unfortunately
some use fucking reason to reject my request
u are busy, so do as i,
why don't i just rest in home and let u all to duty,
fucker,
ajk has ajk's responsibility,
u are not only incharge of ur job,
also have to take care the name of BSMM,
don't SPOIL the name PLEASE!!!

无奈

我是垃圾?
我觉得是,
看了康涌的blog,
更觉得自己是垃圾，
看着bsmm的沉沦，
却无可奈何，
更不用说有什么突破。

有朋友开导我，
算是少数知道情况的，
告诉我，
学校的课外活动，
渐渐没落，
我们也没有办法，
唯有希望不会倒在我手上。

To be alone is to be different, to be different is to be alone.
Suzanne Gordon, Lonely in America, 1976